I haven’t written here for a while. I guess I’ve been avoiding it. I tend to do that when I’m in conflict. Even through my past therapy lessons, I still run from my emotions. I guess some habits never change.
But I’m here now.
Writing. Thinking. Plotting.
I want to be consistent in my endeavor to be vulnerable.
I want to be more fearless.
So I’m gonna write.
And it’s going to get annoying.
But I think I need to do this.
I need to find my pain and forgive it.
Because this blaming avoidant behavior isn’t working.
So here I am.
Promising tomorrow I’ll show up.
Also, we got a new dog. Say hi to Buckley.
I feel aligned with you.
I see me
When I first met you,
I could feel your energy too.
The perfectionism, pride and potential
were swimming around you.
Me and you.
You and me.
Don’t you see?
Our past pain
Has brought us together
that one day
We’d find to be,
What I would consider,
For your forgiveness of your trauma has unlocked the mystery.
Why do they run down your face
Instead of glide
Are we to assume they are not
Or are we to assume they aren’t able?
What if they only could crawl?
Would that not be worth it all?
So let them crawl, glide, swim, jump, skip.
Describe them with intention.
Don’t assume they need tension.